With my voice gone, it’s really hard to communicate with the people around me. It’s a good thing we got all this technology like SMS, facebook, tumblr, YM and so on and so forth. 

Man, this times are hard. I can’t express myself clearly. I’ll have my paper and pen handy for the next few days. I’m just happy I still have my friends around. Their crazy but they are the best.

Today, I have set myself free. Free from all the hurt.

We have broken up and got back together for so many times already that I lost count. Almost 4 years of unending sick cycle carousel ride. This is awfully painful right now but it seems a definite halt between us. I haven’t had much sleep and I want to get drunk and never get sober. I know I can move on sooner or later but I wish there was a fast forward button in this life. 

so make her laugh a little & help her get through, she used to cry & no one knew, help her out & treat her right, it’s been a while since she smiled so bright. show her that not all guys lie, be the one to keep her tears dry.

i wish my life would just restart

i didn’t really learn to let go of things, i just learned how to hide my feelings better.

I’ve been thinking about our relationship the whole week. It hurts to know it’s about to fall off the cliff anytime soon. So I thought about the things I might have done wrong.. 

And this is the conclusion I made…

Never choose to be with someone because you know that person can’t hurt you. In time,shit happens. That person will disappoint you. Rather, be with that someone who understands you and respects you because everything else will follow. 

I end my night by sleeping with tears in my pillow.

Three years ago we we’re so in love and now, we’re total strangers. Every word uttered is like a dagger piercing through us. I wanted to be with you but being around you hurts me more. Even though you’re sitting next to me, it’s like you’re so far away. I’ve been badly hurt but you never tried to ease my pain. You say that it’s my fault and I should change for the better but you never see yourself needing that change, as well.  

Knowing how everything is going well for you makes me feel a little bit happy and a little bit envious as well. I want to be as strong like you. I always wonder how you do it. How you seem not to be affected by our relationship. I guess you’re already moving on. 

One day, I wish to smile again but that time you won’t be my reason for smiling.

Once upon a time..

euphorialustre:

Everything in past tense, yes. What’s done is done though.